With the Program

 Our background checks came back yesterday.  Yes, they were clear, but that wasn't a huge surprise.  I am a boring person.  We are officially ready for our home study.  In the meantime, I have decided that Foster care and Disney can't come at the same time in our current budget.  Unfortunately for me, I have decided to get a small loan.  I hate it.  I hate that I have to do that.  I can't do it any other way.

This week we are babysitting the D-Cousins.  I can definitely see how fostering will effect Mister A.  These kids are so good, but he still needs his space and his time, but he leaves to just get out.  I worry that it will just push him away.  I have to be very cautious about keeping him involved, having one-on-one time with him... I need to make sure we journal every day about our selves.

Some things we have to address now:  Privacy, money, time, love, safety.  Both in our relationship and individually. Needing to ask every day:

1. How is A feeling about this change in dynamics?

2. How am I showing A love and stability even when it is chaotic?

3. What is the time balance between Mr. A. and all this other?